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Old 23-08-2011, 06:35 PM
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Re: my affair with my sis in law

I must have collapsed on J and not move for a good 1-2 minutes. Initially J bore with it but the dead weight must have been unbearable for her small body and she began trying to push me off. I play dead and refused to move.
 
J: U r bloody heavy! U need to lose some weight!
I: If we exercise like this every night, I will definitely lose weight for sure!
J: Cannot! I dont want!
I: Once a week? I promise I will let you in without security screening next time.
J: Yes u pervert! now can you get off me?
 
I moved off J and laid beside her.
 
I: Can I get you a drink?
J: yes.
I: Coffee, tea, whiskey or me?
J: hmm.. I had you already. give me whiskey.
 
I jumped out of bed and went to my kitchen to prepare 2 servings of whiskey with green tea. It was a rather strong concoction since I was running low on green tea. I returned to the room and passed a glass to J. J had now propped up the pillow against the headrest and lying comfortably with the blanket covering up to her shoulders.
 
J: can we have a talk?
I: sure.
 
I knew this conversation had to come some how. There was a long moment of silence.
 
J: Actually, I have been having many sleepless nights ever since our first time.
 
J took a big gulp of the glass as if to muster up enough courage to continue.
 
J: I feel really lousy and cheap. I.. I.. I feel I have betrayed my sis. What if she ever finds out? She will never forgive me and.. I dont think I can face my mum either. I have been living in guilt since we started.
 
Her voice was trailing off now.. choking with emotion. I moved over to her and brought her face to my chest, trying to comfort her.
 
I: Pls J, dont only blame yourself. Its my fault also. I initiated and didnt control myself. I just went with the flow because I couldnt resist you.  
 
J: Actually on my way here, I almost changed my mind. But.. but I missed your smiles, I missed your jokes,.. I missed being in your arms, I missed your caress,  I... I missed you.. I missed you badly..
 
I felt screwed. She was developing feelings for me. Those words were something beyond physical intimacy. Those words were piercing me like needles. Had I unknowing charmed her? were my language too 'flowery' and caused her to fall for me? wtf! It was never my intention to toy with anyone's feelings, much less my own sister in law. Yes, I admitted to myself that lust was at fault, but toying with another person's feelings? No.
 
I: Are you alright?
J: No, im not alright..I know I have feelings for you but I cant be with you because its fucking wrong! I am having an affair with a married man and he is my brother in law! Im sick! Im bloody sick!
 
J was crying now. I felt really bad and was trying my best to console her. I was feeling her pain and tears actually welled up in my eyes.
 
I: come on.. dont put all the blame unto yourself.. I played a big role too. I took advantage of you when you were feeling down.. i..
I ran out of words to console her. I guess I couldnt even convince or justify my own actions.
 
J's arms went round me and was crying rather loudly now. I felt really lousy.
 
J: I want to go home now.
I: let me send you back.
J: no. I will go off myself. give me sometime alone.
 
J dressed up and left.
 
That was probably one of the worst days of my life. I felt terrible.
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